Week 5 Under Way

Sorry I really suck at this whole updating thing. Sometimes I over exaggerate.... a lot. But take me for my word when I say that I am really pretty busy now through May 11.

So running.

I was terrified to complete Week 4 because I was required to run five whole minutes multiple times throughout the workout. And to athletes, five minutes is nothing at all. Hell, its not even long enough to be a warm up. But for me, it was so daunting. The first time I did it I was at the beautiful Buffalo Park and the entire run I just remember repeating to myself "I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me".. and I made it through the run. Afterwards, I died, but I made it through the run.

Wednesday I started physical therapy for my knees and my p.t. gave me orthotics for my shoes. Well, long story short I ran weird with them and I couldn't move for 2 days. Butttttt I'm back in the game.

Want to hear some cool news? Today I completed Week 5 Day 2's workout and I ran 8 minutes straight twice! Check me out! But I had a killer stitch in my side almost the whole time.


So physically: I'm doing alright, I'm having less sore muscles but more sore knees.

The thing about changing one aspect of your life is that it is a pain in the ass. It makes you want to change everything. Once you start exercising you think to yourself, maybe I should eat healthier. Then you start reevaluating everything else in your life. I'm looking at how I spend money, my relationships with my friends, I'm trying to become more organized. It's a little overwhelming. And the hardest part is that I'm trying to do it for me and sometimes that isn't always easy. By nature, I'm a people pleaser (middle-child-syndrome.com.org). I can't do this to look sexy for whichever guys I date in the future. I can't do this because it is what people are telling me I need to do. And I definitely can't do this as a contact-free slap in the face for the next time I see me ex whenever it may be. It needs to be for me. Because when I'm running and I keep hearing that voice, the "you can't do it", that is my voice. That isn't their voices. So I just need to dig deep and do this to kill my self doubt, not to please the world surrounding. And I can do it, and I will.